Happy New Year ‼️
We spent our days at lyf hotel and celebrate my small bro birthday. Those spent days were awesome for me even at night I will suffer for awhile due of my chronic constipation it’s like hell moment even after fleet they still stuck no choice have to find second option and that will be disgusting part I won’t elaborate about it. Thank u hamzah for always plan our holiday. We do miss Malaysia right🤣 may the virus go away soon. Dubai hope to see you again🤗.
Im happy, I had some extra cash to buy dini slider for her too bad those she really like don’t have her size. Take time for her to decide actually🤣 After all she tried at last she decided which one.
Let’s continue about the bonding at hotel we all were crazy the whole day we all watched BL series. Im still shocked my mum also ok with it. All this while i watched secretly but those time only before married time and youngdays keke. Im happy find another entertainment hobby again to watch bl series those i miss alot haha. So thank you to my adik shaddown share those link n apps. Well actually the truth im still down, scared and give up of live all this time but I have no idea why im still here again I just follow the flow. I still can remember that time my first time anxiety panik attack im scared of die that the truth because i cannot see my girl n my mum and others my love one and I also scared because im still not a good muslimah yet. Im still fighting about it, ok this part another story.
Ok now gonna story about my first day back to work how the feeling. First as usual of course the word paiseh in my mind because what had happened to me I felt the worst ever. Lucky they all still sayang me n understand me and keep ask im ok already. I just reply yes im fine but i really cannot predict when it will attacked again.
After that I get ready to sit and start all my duty of the day. At first i never use any airpod on my ear to listen music while sorting or scanning. So I act as normal, but suddenly when I start to do my work very focusly “dang dang” my heartbeat to start unusually, my hand palm start to sweat back and the mind go blanks scared feeling. I tried my best to control it, took out my airpod and handphone listen tu music or zikir as long it will distract my mind and feel back to normal again it takes me 1 hr to cool down and try to drink water too.
Nowdays I no need to post letter already at post office so i will just drop by the normal post box near to mrt station from another exit area. I made new memory instead by walking tru Chinatownpoint now I go by another way already because I feel the way more freely for me. No one notice me when the place to crowd I felt not easy again all these feeling after the anxiety attack.
Nowdays everyday airpod a must for me wherever I go even toilet. Only by listen music with it I feel saved. Anyway at last I finished scan my October closed file now I can focus Nov and Dec. I saw those file going be to taller I also scared already but no choice my time limited due of my condition🤦🏼♀️ No matter what I gave my best even with my sacrifice pain my leg ankle start to pain sometime and my waist too. Well it’s normal all this part of our life to get what we want. Without pain we never gain anything🤗 ok lah that’s all for today. Looking forward my birthday staycation i wanna do some tiktok for my business item🥰👍
The End..
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