Another weakness came back ???

Hi everyone i not sure where to start my story. Well im down about my work schedule have drop to fix date and time. Hm.. nothing to surprise because all due of my weakness but im glad im still working rather zero. 

Now my another weakness came back suddenly perhaps i stress abt maintainance for my daughter. Because i not good in preparation of what I have spent on her. Normally all my salaries after paid bill and my personal thing all those balance for my daughter. I have to save it for every weekend outing. Sometime i even spent more on grabcar or taxi because either my weakness cramp attack while outside or my daughter cranky too tired already. 

Whatever I asked from him actually not that much but still 3 digits and also half price for end year school book and etc.  

Now the prob EX start to change all the matual agreement suddenly after he remarried, do you think fair for him to do all these just because of hate me and our children effected. 

I can understand if he gangster or drug addict or those useless person to have these kind of attitude. But EX someone smart and hardworking why must he became like these after remarried, i wonder if he being controlled haha.  

Few days  ago  family court admin call me to reschedule the court date, well and again i give last chance for EX to find job and settle those maintainance debt. 

Ex always said i no kind heart for him but the truth i always give in think for others. 

Hope these time  he make up his mind to be responsible father. Ex want to visit or not ups to him but to bring my daughter sleep for one night still a NO for me because my trust towards him Closed.  

Now im talking about my weakness, i never expect my uti attack again this month will be the worst one. I just hope all this weakness finish soon. Well for now i just keep drinking cranberries until mine salary go in than go see doctor.