Hi everyone, seriously I really don’t know how to start it. While type I just follow my heart. Ok lah I start with my job story first. This year and this month my health really drop i can count how many MC I got even i know in the end unpaid I just took it for proof only.
Hm.. from what I see my files that need to scan and sort still slow down so I just did those C21B sorting those document and box them for recycle. Suddenly I realise our box and cover not enough so I just to double check list only first overall I left 2 box only but due of my conditon down I only can do it tomorrow onwards. Well it make look all done but actually not I still need to wait boss arrange the recycle date to bring in the brown bag around 5 to 10 pcs because I need to transfer those in the recycle bag due of cover and box not enough. I hope all this settle by May because my C22A no space already.
Now my sickness condition.
My so call gastric bloated and acid reflex came back after one year. Before this I notice already the signal of my throat feel like a ball stuck and sometime feel scared to swollow something. The fear feeling damn scary for me lah, I also notice my chest area left side like have bumb only when touch it or my chest feel tight suddenly than i feel pain now want to sleep also must find comfortable position to sleep 🙈. All this for now I just ate polyclinic doc for awhile before i start to go back hospital again just for to see my inner body with camera again. Those process look easy but the before and after pain only I know lol.
Let’s story the fear part.
I cannot remember when this fear feeling start on me but this time I can feel like something crawl on my inner skin it will attack me while I did my job and even sleep time. At first I don’t want to think about it much but this time frequently🙈. Because of this i also lack of sleep i have to distract it with watching tiktok and chat with them too.Actually before all this fear came in my life, the first signal that i notice is shadow than even don’t dare to see mirror and even my own pics.
So now I decide to go for traditional treatment even i still scared of the result yes or no. Because if yes how my body and myself can accept it or not than if nope will i feel the paiseh forever and waste my money.I told myself why i must think all this I’m tired already. So now I will just distract think if really don’t have than i will just take it as I will restart everything and don’t care already about the word hypocrite and trauma that play my mental all this while right. I always told my other-self come on wati u can do it. Well like i say once my emergency money start to withdraw that money will never stop there already from 4 digit became 3 digit and i maintain rolling it for 2 yrs in the end no idea that amount can go back to 4 digit again or not😢.
Ok last story.
We never expected that our supermom will be sick this year Ramadan, but as normal im someone know all this will come so i just auto which ever I can do most important no one disturb or sound what I am doing because from the start i know i cannot do thing fast and perfect. Anyway just want to say thank you to everyone that help out the housework while our supermom sick.
The End..
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