Hi to whoever read my blog again and again, as you know I lost my grandma already everynight the feeling of rewind back memories with her came back slowly this time im fine no tears just smiles only if suddenly those memory suddenly want to rewind again. My momentum to selling still not active yet just update few pics only, I need that motivation force back is it because holiday period or someone just pass away so the excited to selling still slow just want to relax only again I also confused with my own self.
Last Friday we had company dinner we stayed there until nearly 9pm. As usual of course I loved this kind of bonding event we can talk2 bonding each other while at work everyone doing own things right. I loved to see their laughing and smiles face.
Going home time our boss plan already we will took whose transport for going back home. Thank you Mr Kuru our company lawyer, wow we felt show special like that haha. We really appreciate it 😃🤗.
Ok now I want to talk about my pain every night have to go through. I had try my best to avoid any heavy food for my tummy when ever have cramp bloated pain. As usual if one day no rice for me I will felt something missing something i like never complete my day keke. So what I did change it bread with cheese or seafood agolio. Whenever I had this pain feeling, my panic attack and over thinking keep ask me should I just go shortcut for stomabag.
This thing as beginner will be troublesome and disgusting so I keep tell myself once I done it no turn back have scar again and etc more thing might happen that we won’t know. Ok lets talk about fleet enema yes this thing really works for me sometime, but again my over thinkinh keep said must control if not the piles might lost hope how why i over thinking about it because accidently imagine what if suddenly keep pok2 on my anus than something happen of course not now but again we cannot predict.
Every night i always think about myself can I be strong again and confident again. Then when in relationship part will i have that chance again should I or not at all. Why I keep think all this because, I know i need that someone to give me that love feeling and confident back u know the feeling that you restart ur life not feel like dead. Again another part of another story, the sad part my girl still haven’t open heart to find the dad, because she said the feeling will be different already in malay said kekok.
Actually the truth she can start find already just add her dad fb. Until now always ??? Why he hate me, but my girl got the punished lost daddy loved. It is not fair for her side seh, why can’t it be those friendly divorce. I just really lost of words already for this situation. Well if the chance to have someone better for me n dini this time i will be really precaution whatever I do will give just by action and 50% or 60% only the rest will be the guy side as usual the marriage will be just by follow the flow only. Whoever the person will be of course two heart must clap together not 1 side only. I guess thats all for today story.
The End..
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